[Aqua didn't even know Maomao. He couldn't have stopped her from sneaking out to eat hemlock, or whatever it was she did. His every natural instinct screams at him to get hold of himself and stop, to dam it all back up.
But Lortel's hand on his back undoes him gently.]
I know it's not my fault, but my mother... and my sister...
['Enjoy your totally unnecessary self-inflicted stab wound, I guess?'
What if it really didn't matter? What if he did all that for nothing? What if he died, or disappeared, and Ruby's still in danger?]
What's the point of keeping me alive, if nothing I do protects anyone...?
cw: suicidal mindframe all the way up and down this thread
[Aqua didn't even know Maomao. He couldn't have stopped her from sneaking out to eat hemlock, or whatever it was she did. His every natural instinct screams at him to get hold of himself and stop, to dam it all back up.
But Lortel's hand on his back undoes him gently.]
I know it's not my fault, but my mother... and my sister...
['Enjoy your totally unnecessary self-inflicted stab wound, I guess?'
What if it really didn't matter? What if he did all that for nothing? What if he died, or disappeared, and Ruby's still in danger?]
What's the point of keeping me alive, if nothing I do protects anyone...?